12.30.2005

:(

something happened at work which i'm not too happy about. not sure what to do about it yet.

preoccupied

it's no secret the boomers have a huge impact on society - politically, socially, economically. those in the boomer demographic group that managed to establish security and financial independence have little to worry about - pull a few strings and voila, that friend from college knows a doctor or holistic therapist who can straighten out health problems, or at least point in the right direction.

but it also posed the question of what's going to happen to the rest of society when the boomer group shrinks? they are the reason why service industries (financial, caregiving, healthcare, hospitality) have experienced such tremendous growth in the past few decades. when the boomers pass on, where will the customer base for such industries be coming from? will this mean a shift in focus back to consumer product and research sectors in the decades to come? how big will the government's role be? it'll be interesting to see how this pans out over time.

i like these girls

12.29.2005

i am busy, REAL busy

here's what my typical work day looks like:

8:55 AM - get in the office, eat breakfast, surf the news
10:00 AM - take a break
11:00 AM - surf some more
12:00 PM - chat with coworker
1:00 PM - start DVD
2:00 PM - lunch break
3:30 PM - send some emails
4:30 PM - get ready to leave
5:00 PM - chat with coworker
5:30 PM - leave the office

yeah i was too lazy to describe the links, knock yourselves out. there's a lego thing in there somewhere! pretty neat.

12.26.2005

xmas fortunes

the family (minus one) went out to have a good old fashioned chinese xmas dinner. we went to 'jen wei', on main street a bit past booth memorial boulevard, near new york hospital, across from the car wash. the food was meh, wouldn't drive me to go back. at the end of the meal, the fortune cookies arrived, and i noticed a theme among the fortunes. typically fortunes are sappy and irrelevant, but these seem to be part of some anti-complacency propaganda:

'Vary your friendships.'

'The important thing is to never stop questioning.'

'The great aim of education is not knowledge but action.'


who's writing this stuff?

on an unrelated note, steve pointed out that nytimes had a short article about how ny1 switched to low-bandwidth during the strike and its explanations. pretty cool.

12.24.2005

addicted to stories

because of the transit strike, i haven't been home in a few days. the always generous tango-kitesurfer stacy let me stay in her showroom apartment with her showroom cat sammy so i only had to walk 30 minutes to work instead of commuting 2+ hours from home.

when i got home i found my secret santa gift! thank you thank you thank you i am enjoying it immensely already.

and i got a cute xmas card from my financial advisor. It's the one of
Lisa (from The Simpsons) with arms outstretched: "Don't buy into those Christmas marketing ploys. They're nothing but an evil plot set to destroy our value system and desensitize us to the greed and gusto of a capitalist economy therefore making us walking and talking advertisements for the purveyance of excess. Merry Christmas."

been on a comic frenzy since roboto got me Y: The Last Man. went through flight 1 & 2 as well - an anthology of short graphic stories from emerging artists. so many stories to digest and absorb! i will be content for a long time to come :)

12.20.2005

linkorama d'jour

snatched from digg and metafilter:

1 my first robot love to be revived
2 rubber woman
3 pretty bookcovers
4 start to fill your 2005 audio library with this guide
5 undoing the knife
6 taiwanese... something

where are all the cyclists?

did the folks who bike monthly at critical mass somehow decided to hoof it instead to work? as far as i know, biking was encouraged. on the walk from penn station to grand central, i saw lots of cabs and pedestrians. Madison Avenue is eerily empty without the buses. yet, as much of an inconvenience it's been (I'm toting my luggage 20+ blocks today), i'd still like to see the workers get the respect they deserve:

"The working conditions are more physically onerous, the treatment by managers more disrespectful, and the abuse from the public more hurtful, than any other group of public workers in the city experiences," Dr. Swerdlow said.
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"Transit workers, because of the schedules they work and the conditions they work in, are often in industrial environments that most New Yorkers have left behind a long time ago," said Dr. Snyder, an associate professor of journalism and media studies at Rutgers University in Newark. "The idea that a motorman has to scramble to find a place to urinate on a busy day is not something most of us face on the job."

12.19.2005

too real

i came across this game more than a year ago. looks like the folks at meebo discovered it recently, or decided to let the cat out. warning: may cause extreme sleep deprevation, decreased work productivity, and dry eyes.

so the MTA is finally going on strike. ny1's website's been getting so much traffic they reverted to low html version. looks like somebody needs a better server. so does the MTA site.

i have to say, finding out information four days in advance of the press is pretty strange. thursday i sent out a mass email warning the possibility of MetroNorth and lirr possibly joining their sister MTA in the strike as a show of good faith and solidarity - i saw it on the news this morning. when i didn't hear it in the news thursday night i thought maybe the executives were just having some fun.

it also makes me wonder if i'm allowed to be sharing this information with my friends and family (probably not, so HUSH). as i'm writing this post, i hear the director recounting his experience walking to work during the last strike. others are talking about biking to work.

here's to trying to get on the LIRR tomorrow.

12.15.2005

blue collar

me: you're white collar too, geez
him: no, I am not..
me: yeah you are
him: there is.. another new term
me: what is that
him: I am over there
me: gray collar?
me: pink collar?
him: from dot com days, media created this thing name gold collar.. HAHAHAHAHAHAH
me: oh geez
him: I AM WITH THE BLING BLING!
him: BLIIIIIIIIIIIIIIING
me: you are so retarded

bloomberg rocks

really. which other mayor can read the minds of the the information hungry new yorkers have become. first 311, now this. take that, red tape. well actually, the credit for 311 should go to DOITT, but it was bloomie's idea.

12.14.2005

walk the line, kilauea, narwhals

saw a lovely romance tonight. i never noticed phoenix's nostrils are asymmetrical. here's a picture of the lovebirds:


romances make me think of all the things i never admit to want.


i was here. well, i didn't see this, but walked pretty close to it, and got scared too soon. there was a delta collapse on november 30, which i find pretty exciting (i'm easily excited these days). the lava flow at this volcano was extremely slow and even - a turtle may be able to outrun the lava.


i absolutely have to see one of these before i die.

12.13.2005

i walked by this today

transit strike talks are getting increasingly theatrical. tomorrow mayor bloomberg will make a public announcement of the city's contingency plans. am i weird for finding this EXCITING?? when TWU President Roger Toussaint ripped up the lawsuit in front of the Hyatt, Al Sharpton raised his eyebrow in surprise before joining the crowds in cheers of approval. bystanders on the other side of 42nd street whistled and clapped in support, even though they were not transit workers themselves. according to the Local 100 website, there will be another march this thursday from Governor Pataki's office on 39th and 3rd to the Grand Hyatt at Grand Central Terminal, in case anyone has the time to spectate.

in the clip on the NBC nightly news, i saw someone who WORKS ON MY FLOOR commenting on the budget surplus. i will find out tomorrow what her name is...

drama drama drama. i love it.

12.12.2005

best ideas of 2005 & eye candy of the day

nytime magazine had a list of best ideas of 2005 - my favorites include the anti-rape condom, econophysics, laptops that will save the world (or ruin it), the runaway alarm clock, two dimensional food, the fleeting relationship, and cubicle privacy.

eye candies of the day (hope it doesn't cause indigestion) grabbed from metafilter:
1 eat dog cat mouse
2 traditional japanese sushi dining etiquette

12.11.2005

transformations

over the past year, i've become a different person. i use to be more type 4 (individualist) and 5 (investigator). i feel old :/

Enneagram

The Easygoing, Self-Effacing Type:
Receptive, Reassuring Agreeable, and Complacent
Basic Fear: Of loss and separation
Basic Desire: To have inner stability "peace of mind"

Healthy: Deeply receptive, accepting, unselfconscious, emotionally stable and serene. Trusting of self and others, at ease with self and life, innocent and simple. Patient, unpretentious, good-natured, genuinely nice people. / Optimistic, reassuring, supportive: have a healing and calming influence — harmonizing groups, bringing people together: a good mediator, synthesizer, and communicator. At Their Best: Become self-possessed, feeling autonomous and fulfilled: have great equanimity and contentment because they are present to themselves. Paradoxically, at one with self, and thus able to form more profound relationships. Intensely alive, fully connected to self and others.

Average: Fear conflicts, so become self-effacing and accommodating, idealizing others and "going along" with their wishes, saying "yes" to things they do not really want to do. Fall into conventional roles and expectations. Use philosophies and stock sayings to deflect others./ Active, but disengaged, unreflective, and inattentive. Do not want to be affected, so become unresponsive and complacent, walking away from problems, and "sweeping them under the rug." Thinking becomes hazy and ruminative, mostly comforting fantasies, as they begin to "tune out" reality, becoming oblivious. Emotionally indolent, unwillingness to exert self or to focus on problems: indifference. / Begin to minimize problems, to appease others and to have "peace at any price." Stubborn, fatalistic, and resigned, as if nothing could be done to change anything. Into wishful thinking, and magical solutions. Others frustrated and angry by their procrastination and unresponsiveness.

Unhealthy: Can be highly repressed, undeveloped, and ineffectual. Feel incapable of facing problems: become obstinate, dissociating self from all conflicts. Neglectful and dangerous to others. / Wanting to block out of awareness anything that could affect, them, they dissociate so much that they eventually cannot function: numb, depersonalized. / They finally become severely disoriented and catatonic, abandoning themselves, turning into shattered shells. Multiple personalities possible. Generally corresponds to the Schizoid and Dependent personality disorders.

Key Motivations: Want to create harmony in their environment, to avoid conflicts and tension, to preserve things as they are, to resist whatever would upset or disturb them.

***
Enneagram

The Committed, Security-Oriented Type:

Engaging, Responsible, Anxious, and Suspicious

Basic Fear: Of being without support and guidance
Basic Desire: To have security and support

Healthy:
Able to elicit strong emotional responses from others: very appealing, endearing, lovable, affectionate. Trust important: bonding with others, forming permanent relationships and alliances. / Dedicated to individuals and movements in which they deeply believe. Community builders: responsible, reliable, trustworthy. Hard-working and persevering, sacrificing for others, they create stability and security in their world, bringing a cooperative spirit. At Their Best:
Become self-affirming, trusting of self and others, independent yet symbiotically interdependent and cooperative as an equal. Belief in self leads to true courage, positive thinking, leadership, and rich self-expression.

Average:
Start investing their time and energy into whatever they believe will be safe and stable. Organizing and structuring, they look to alliances and authorities for security and continuity. Constantly vigilant, anticipating problems. / To resist having more demands made on them, they react against others passive-aggressively. Become evasive, indecisive, cautious, procrastinating, and ambivalent. Are highly reactive, anxious, and negative, giving contradictory, "mixed signals." Internal confusion makes them react unpredictably. / To compensate for insecurities, they become sarcastic and belligerent, blaming others for their problems, taking a tough stance toward "outsiders." Highly reactive and defensive, dividing people into friends and enemies, while looking for threats to their own security. Authoritarian while fearful of authority, highly suspicious, yet, conspiratorial, and fear-instilling to silence their own fears.


Unhealthy: Fearing that they have ruined their security, they become panicky, volatile, and self-disparaging with acute inferiority feelings. Seeing themselves as defenseless, they seek out a stronger authority or belief to resolve all problems. Highly divisive, disparaging and berating others / Feeling persecuted, that others are "out to get them," they lash-out and act irrationally, bringing about what they fear. Fanaticism, violence. / Hysterical, and seeking to escape punishment, they become self-destructive and suicidal. Alcoholism, drug overdoses, "skid row," self-abasing behavior. Generally corresponds to the Passive-Aggressive and Paranoid personality disorders.

Key Motivations: Want to have security, to feel supported by others, to have certitude and reassurance, to test the attitudes of others toward them, to fight against anxiety and insecurity.

***
Enneagram

The Caring, Interpersonal Type:

Generous, Demonstrative, People-Pleasing, and Possessive
Basic Fear: Of being unwanted, unworthy of being loved
Basic Desire: To feel loved

Healthy: Empathetic, compassionate, feeling for others. Caring and concerned about their needs. Thoughtful, warm-hearted, forgiving and sincere. / Encouraging and appreciative, able to see the good in others. Service is important, but takes care of self too: they are nurturing, generous, and giving — a truly loving person. At Their Best: Become deeply unselfish, humble, and altruistic: giving unconditional love to self and others. Feel it is a privilege to be in the lives of others.

Average: Want to be closer to others, so start "people pleasing", becoming overly friendly, emotionally demonstrative, and full of "good intentions" about everything. Give seductive attention: approval, "strokes," flattery. Love their supreme value, and they talk about it constantly. / Become overly intimate and intrusive: they need to be needed, so they hover, meddle, and control in the name of love. Want others to depend on them: give, but expect a return: send double messages. Enveloping and possessive: the codependent, self-sacrificial person who cannot do enough for others — wearing themselves out for everyone, creating needs for themselves to fulfill. / Increasingly self-important and self-satisfied, feel they are indispensable, although they overrate their efforts in others' behalf. Hypochondria, becoming a "martyr" for others. Overbearing, patronizing, presumptuous.

Unhealthy: Can be manipulative and self-serving, instilling guilt by telling others how much they owe them and make them suffer. Abuse food and medication to "stuff feelings" and get sympathy. Undermine people, making belittling, disparaging remarks. Extremely self-deceptive about their motives and how aggressive and/or selfish their behavior is. / Domineering and coercive: feel entitled to get anything they want from others: the repayment of old debts, money, sexual favors. / Able to excuse and rationalize what they do since they feel abused and victimized by others and are bitterly resentful and angry. Somatization of their aggressions result in chronic health problems as they vindicate themselves by "falling apart" and burdening others. Generally corresponds to the Histrionic Personality Disorder and Factitious Disorder.

Key Motivations: Want to be loved, to express their feelings for others, to be needed and appreciated, to get others to respond to them, to vindicate their claims about themselves.

***

ok i just took the short version and it told me the complete opposite. personality tests are waste of time... :)

12.08.2005

news etc.

1 yes! someone agrees with me on abortion!
2 dinosaurs of new york city
3 news about an ex
4 western version of 'happy together'

with love, MTA

Conductor: Ladies and gentlemen, you don't all have to use one door. We have 32 doors on this side of the train alone. If you can't get in, try any one of the 31 other doors.
--C train

12.06.2005

spellbinding

via 3quarksdaily:

The Seed Media Group has launched a new version of Seed Magazine, whose motto is "Science is Culture." They have also developed a beautiful way of presenting science-related items from around the web, and they call it Phylotaxis.

for more information, clickety-click.

please check your frowns at the door

some pretty things to brighten your day (thanks jeremy):
1 samuraaaaaaaiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!
2 fingers 'n props
3 merry xmas :)

12.05.2005

transamerica, story of the weeping camel, and blue

transamerica: it's good to see upbeat films in the lgbt genre. althought it was disorienting at first to hear huffman's voice change and her extremely feminine acting (as opposed to her usual masculine demeanor on 'desperate housewives'), 15 minutes into the movie all was forgotten. the film was also educational, raising awareness regarding the process of undergoing a sex change operation and the levels of veganism that exist. there was full frontal nudity - one pre-op (with prosthetic) and another post-op, and it made me wonder if there was only one penis prototype distributed. i couldn't figure out the time period for the story - huffman's wardrobe seemed to be a couple of decades behind everyone else's. apart from the question marks i had, i still found it enjoyable. 3/4 monkeys.

story of the weeping camel: documentary about a mongolian shepherd famiy's attempt to reconcile a camel with its albini calf after a difficult birth. the film had the credibility of a pbs program, without the english narrative voiceover. it provided a peak into the mongolian camel herders' culture - family values, traditions, and rituals. it was heartbreaking at times to see the mother withhold milk from its calf, and the herders conjuring ideas to keep the mother in place so the calf can suckle. in the end, it was the music of the traditional mongolian violin and the voice of the herder that convinced the mother to accept her responsibility to her offspring. the pace was slow, as all documentaries, and the cinematography was beautiful. 3.25/4 monkeys.

blue: first in the color series by the late krzysztof kieslowski. a newly widowed woman, in her grief, abandons the life she has and moves from the countryside to the city. there she is haunted by the memory of her deceased family and the sounds of her husband's unfinished symphony. the color blue is present in most of the film for effect, and binoche's pixie appearanc is ever so endearing. through a series of events she gradually recovers from her grief and aids an old colleague in completing her husband's symphony. 3/4 monkeys.

12.04.2005

egg tarts, fish worms, and stinky tofu

i've been meaning to stop by egg tart king for over a month now since andy told me about them, and i finally did this weekend. this place is amazing - flavors ranged from regular, egg white, banana, almond, sesame, honey dew, strawberry, bird's nest, shark fin, chocolate, and portuguese. i was kicking myself for not remembering to take pictures, but then i found this:

her flickr photos made me really want to visit china

but this gave me second thoughts

and this made me realize that i've never had real stinky tofu:

isn't it bizarre where egg tarts can take you?

(these photos are not taken by me)

12.01.2005

setting up, taiwan independence, and abortion

the incentive to set up a blog was to participate in secret santa! i noticed this project a few years ago, in my web-whore days. i love the idea of a mystery gift from a mystery person. so much suspense! i'm not really sure how this blog will turn out though - probably a mish-mash of spelling and grammar mistakes. still working out a few kinks, filling out the flesh of the site, pretty boring in the mean time.

so i'll start with some random musings: over dinner last night, a friend attempted to get my take on the independent taiwan situation. as a taiwanese, i feel a certain responsibility to support the island's independence. but as i learned more about how the whole thing started, the more it doesnt matter to have a stance on it. it's just a symptom of different nations defending their interests, dressing up their positions with historical rhetoric and manipulation. not to say the whole thing's just a spectacle. it's just not worth debating about. for me, anyway. the countries will work something out eventually, and if they like yelling at each other in the meantime, then let them. there are too many other things to fight about, and this is just one of them :)

another issue on the news constantly these days: abortion. i am pro-choice, because i believe pro-choice can the same outcomes that pro-lifers advocate. most women don't prefer abortion. anyone who thinks abortions are pleasant is CRAZY. abortions are a last resort. the argument that pro-choice will lead to irresponsible behavior is SWISS CHEESE. don't ever say that to a woman unless you want heel marks all over your face. all jokes aside, to make that argument valid is more of a commentary on poor education. if a woman thinks she can have all the unprotected sex because she can just abort any accidents afterwards, it's because someone's been brainwashing her and feeding her bad information. i really think pro-life would be the wrong policy move in this instance. but what do i know? i don't even have an organized argument.

so there, my first real post. more to follow.